Somnia Memorias

I moved my blog to:

http://somniamemorias.com

He he he.

Hari ini, ada DUA laki-laki dari masa lalu gw yang nongol mendadak di hari yang sama. Damn. Dua-duanya masih tetep lucu sih.. tapi ya gitu dee… halah males aja.. tapi lumayan juga lah.. bisa bikin gue ketawa (dan semangat ngisi blog lagi).

Anyway, semangat gue lagi berapi-api nih.. tentang.. mmm.. xHTML, .com, photoshop, CSS, Joomla, Movable Type.. sounds familiar? Haha.. maybe not. I’ll announced it right away when I settled those things up.

Just hear those sleigh bells jingle-ing
Ring ting tingle-ing too
Come on, it’s lovely weather
For a sleigh ride together with you

Outside the snow is falling
And friends are calling "You Hoo"
Come on, it’s lovely weather
For a sleigh ride together with you

Giddy-yap giddy-yap giddy-yap let’s go
Let’s look at the snow
We’re riding in a wonderland of snow
Giddy-yap giddy-yap giddy-yap it’s grand
Just holding your hand
We’re gliding along with the song of a wintry fairy land

Our cheeks are nice and rosy and comfy cozy are we
We’re snuggled up together like two birds of a feather would be
Let’s take the road before us and sing a chorus or two
Come on, it’s lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you

There’s a birthday party at the home of Farmer Gray
It’ll be the perfect ending of a perfect day
We’ll be singing the songs we love to sing without a single stop
At the fireplace while we watch the chestnuts pop
Pop! Pop! Pop!

There’s a happy feeling nothing in the world can buy
When they pass around the coffee and the pumpkin pie
It’ll nearly be like a picture print by Currier and Ives
These wonderful things are the things we remember all through our lives

My favorite Christmas-theme song!!!

I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!!!

It makes me happy.. even though it’s cold but somehow I feel the warmth inside my chest.

Wow, I heard many Christmas song in malls now… and many "Merry Christmas"  on magazines..  nice… well, last year wasn’t as merry as now, of course. LOL. Thank God for that.

Recently I had problems with SORRY. People made mistakes, it’s true. And of course it’s acceptable. But can we truly accept it? I mean, saying sorry can’t change anything. All they can do is just saying "I’m sorry" and that’s it, plus add some regrets, guilty feelings, terrible feelings, and yada yada.

In the end, it’s always me who cleaned up the mess. I hate it. Well, I know I’ve been taught to be a forgiving person.. but yeah I have to admit that sometimes it does suck.

Maybe all I can do put fewer hopes, or  thinking  "don’t think that they can do things like you did to them". Maybe it’ll make me feel better. Maybe I should think that I forgive them for myself.

Kalo ada waktunya buat gue untuk maki-maki, mungkin sekarang saatnya.

Dalam sehari terjadi dua hal yang cukup ngebikin maag gw protes.

Satu, pembatalan mendadak. Dua, skandal insidentil.

Rasanya gue pengen marah, pengen nangis, pengen teriak-teriak. Tapi yang ada di muka gue cuma mimik muka datar. Well, maybe a bit merengut, tapi akhirnya gue ngga mengeluarkan emosi apa pun.

Gue kecewa banget, dan gue malu banget. Gimana cara gue ngehandle dua problem ini dalam waktu yang cuma jeda dua menit?

Rasanya gue pengen mengasingkan diri. Serius. Gue pengen pergi jauh sejauh-jauhnya dari tempat gue sekarang. Setiap kali gue bete, gue pengen keluar dari rumah. Dan sekarang gue lagi ngalamin yang namanya sakit ati, jadi gue harus keluar pulau, keluar negeri kalo perlu. Ujung-ujungnya gue bete lagi, karena gue ga punya duit.

Apa ini semua karena lagi-lagi gue terlalu berharap? Terlalu optimis? Apa gue salah karena terlalu sakit ati begitu hal yang gue anggep beres malah jadi ancur berantakan? Atau gue salah karena gue punya bad feeling about it tapi gue tetep go on aja? Salah gue karena gue ga ngikutin feeling gue?

Gue pengen sekali-sekali ga percaya sama feeling. Gue pengen feeling gue salah karena gue ga punya kuasa apa pun untuk ngubah semuanya. Gue cuma bisa terima. Dan masalahnya adalah untuk saat ini GUE NGGA MAU TERIMA.

Gue bahkan ga tau sekarang gue nulis apaan. Gue takut kalo one day, gue bakal hysterical atau nangis seember. Selama ini gue ga pernah curhat serius. Gue ga pernah curhat sampe nangis-nangis kayak cewe-cewe lain. Karena bagi gue, curhat itu nyakitin. Gue ga pernah dapet respon curhat yang gue ngerti. Yang ada dari selama ini gue dapetin, mereka cuma ketawa, ngegampangin, nyepelein, malah ngasih problem yang lebih parah dari gue untuk ngebandingin (entah bwt apa), trus ngoceh2 sendiri dan ujungn2ya malah mereka yg curhat, ada yang cuma jawab ‘ga tau’ terus2an, ada yang malah ngejutekin, malah bilang "udah biarin aja" "ya elah gitu doang kalee" "ya udah trus mau gimana?" "gue juga ga tau" "ya serah lo aja deh"

Apa jangan2 gue kalo dicurhatin orang responnya juga kayak gitu ya?

Kinda funny when I think about liking someone who’s a garbage to another person.

It’s sick.

Treasuring someone’s trash.

What a crap.

浅き夢のあとは ふと思い出して
儚きものへと 想い馳せる
螺旋を描いては 旅へ誘う
白い蝶 一片 裾と踊る

愛するきもちそれは決して
ひとりきりでは持てないの

※やわらかな夜 月明かり浮かぶ
ミルクティーを飲みながら
やわらかな夜 待ち焦がれている
明日へ向かうベランダで
やわらかな夜 絹の波間には
忘れることなき想い
やわらかな夜 待ち焦がれている
明日へ向かうベランダで※

浅き夢のあとは ふと思い出して
儚きものへと 思い馳せる

瞬きひとつ 粉を払う
睫毛に触れる雫ごと

(※くり返し)

浅き夢のあとは この手の中に
儚く脆くて強い想い
儚く脆くて強い想い
儚く脆くて強い想い

Romaji:

Orange Pekoe - Yawarakana Yoru

Asaki yume no ato wa  futo omoidashiteHakanaki mono e to  omoi haseruRasen wo egaite wa  tabi e sasouShiroi chou  hitohira  suso to odoru

Ai suru kimochi sore wa kesshiteHitorikiri de wa  motenai no

* Yawarakana yoru  tsukiakari ukabuMIRUKU TII wo nominagaraYawarakana yoru  machikogarete iruAsu e mukau BERANDA deYawarakana yoru  kinu no namima ni waWasureru koto naki omoiYawarakana yoru machikogarete iruAsu e mukau BERANDA de

Asaki yume no ato wa  futo omoidashiteHakanaki mono e to  omoi haseru

Mabataki hitotsu  kona o harauMatsuge ni fureru shizuku goto

* repeat

Asaki yume no ato wa  kono te no naka niHakanaku morokute tsuyoi omoiHakanaku morokute tsuyoi omoiHakanaku morokute tsuyoi omoi

It's the music on my Friendster's profile =D

1. Whatever I do, I do it because I love you.

2. Don’t stare at the dark clouds, but rather, believe in the sun behind them.

3. All you have to do is stay still and survive.

Quotes that makes me sure that yesterday-tears and now-feelings are to be erased.

You think I’d leave your side baby?

You know me better than that

You think I’d leave down when your down on your knees?

I wouldn’t do that

I’ll do you right when your wrong

I—–ohhh, ohhh

If only you could see into me

oh, when your cold

I’ll be there to hold you tight to me

When your on the outside baby and you can’t get in

I will show you, your so much better than you know

When your lost, when your alone and you can’t get back again

I will find you darling I’ll bring you home

If you want to cry

I am here to dry your eyes

and in no time you’ll be fine

You think I’d leave your side baby

You know me better than that

You think I’d leave you down when your down on your kness

I wouldn’t do that

I’ll do you right when your wrong

I—–I, ohhhh, ohhh

If only you could see into me

Oh when your cold

I’ll be there

To hold you tight to me

Oh when your alone

I’l be there by your side baby

Ga pengen numbuhin yang satu ini.

Ga bener ini.

Ga bisa yah gue ongkang-ongkang kaki nunggu yang layak dateng tanpa diganggu para false-potent ini?

Kalo gue ladenin satu-satu ya gue yang luka!

Apa mungkin gue harus lari? Lari lagi meskipun capek, berharap nabrak ke yang lain?

Kalo lari gue capek, kalo diem gue sakit.

Gue harus gimana dong??